17 Nov... haix.. today ar.. not feelin veri well... than slp till 12 to 1 plus... dear sms mi.. keep on sms mi.. i noe.. my hands jus cant move.... my whole body beri tired... than slp.. haix... than wake up le... reply her... haix.. i noe she's worry... but i really cant move... haix... than wake up le.. sms dear lor.. watch TV.... than mama cook scramble egg... i think of wenwen tt time at my house.. i cook egg fer her to eat.... haix.. than watch tv... sms rex, david, mZ... i mad le.. i sms them for nth...than left david le.. we sms quite long... he really gd frien of mine... he started to acc mi nw a days.. c0s exam over le.. but i alshoo mus Zhi Dong.. he gt GF le.. need time fer her.. haix.. maybe u all will think.. i alshoo gt caslin wad... haix.. i dunno... i really dunno... my mind is confuse.. izzit the rite choice fer mi??? i dunno.. i miss wenqing alot.. really miss her.. i miss the days we spend... after i watch VCD... i lie on the bed... on mi and wenqing de song... haix.. i miss her ar... really hen miss ta... haix... i noe.. i hurt caslin if she see this... but.. i really cant help it.. than tok to wenya(wenqing sis) on msn.. chat quite alot lor.. haix... ask her abt her PSLE.. and etc lor.. haix... than tml meetin them go play bball in the morning... u noe wad?? i change all the blogger things le... www.xiaobao7.blogspot.com (ish mi and wenqing the memory)... really dun wanna go touch it... rite.. i create new wan... which ish this wan... up to u all lor.. say i flirt or makeu used caslin... to mi... in my heart... there ish onli a gal i lurbe.... which ish wenqing.. i do like caslin.. not as much as wenqing... i am sorry dear.. really sorry.. i dun mean too.. after tt.. go bath..eat.. than sms caslin... i told her not to be shoo gd to mi... u noe y i say this.. last time wenqing used to be veri gd to mi.. but i neglect her... and they way caslin treat mi is really diff frm wenqing... i find wenqing more lurbe and care abt stead... like wise caslin... she did care abt mi.. but ish over the limit le... i find it beri rao ma... really.. i prefer wenqing the way she treat mi...haix.. i alshooo dunno wad to do lahs.. i not scare write like tt... if i dun say out... i find tt.. i am cheating caslin and alshoo cheating myself... i really not worthy fer ur love caslin... really not the guy that u think ish simple.. i am a beri diff guy to get to noe... u may noe mi well.. but u wanna mi to replace u and wenqing.. ish really hard... really hard.... to mi.. i already dun beleive and promise than u gif mi.. c0s.. i learn my lesson.. i dun wanna get hurt.... even i say i beleive u.. in my heart.. i dun remember tt promise... c0s promise ish alway meant to break.... understand?? this is wad i learn frm wenqing... i promise her too much... and i break it times and times... i noe the hurt she get last time.. c0s i nw having the hurt.. which really cant be heal nw... if realli heal... there will alway be a scar there.... a scare of memory i used to have wif her... really....i did say i wanna try... but i am really trying hard.. really trying... and the things jus cant move away... this like a super glue... i alway and every day in a pain.. i struggle every single day... really.. i noe u ask mi not to think.. sho do i? i alway tel myself... but in the end.. i keep thinking.. i will not think if i am doing things.... like bball? work? slp? sometime even i slp.. i drea of her... i dun wanna say... haix.. last nite i dream of her again...u see... it jus can move away.. cant....i now sayin all these not to have any intention.. if 1 day u cannont take it... u wanna leave mi.. i dun force...and dun blame u.. c0s... ish my fault.. but u will be in 1 of my memory... like all my ex... there still have memory in my mind... sometime i do think of them... sometime happy things will lead to sad when u are thinking.... that's y i cry yesterday... haix.. wo hen lei.. i sometime really wanna slp and dun ever wake up.. really dun wan... haix.... u noe wad.. last nite.. i sheded tears fer her again.... wo hao ton ar... zhen de hen ton.. no1 can cure mi.. onli 2 person.... 1... my self... 2... wenqing... onli this choice.. rite nw.. i using the 1st wan... but i find it hard... haix... tml ish 1 month le... we break fer 1 month le... 1st time have the feeling that she leave mi 1 month... haix.. to u all 1 month ish nth... but mi.. this 1 month i struggle... really stuggle... actually i getting over.. trying.... not like last few weeks... ish like hell.. haix... i get to understand... i shld let her go... really must.... u lurbe her..u must let go... if not.. u are adding budden to her... this is wad i learn frm this lurbe i used to haf... love ish concern not demanding... really... i nv wan anything back frm her.. jus hope she will able to be frien and chat wif mi if possible.. but.. i dun think shoo bahX... haix... hen lei le... i choice this path.. i shld face it myself... wenqing.. i really miss u lots... haix.. dear.. love ya too....

JinngYi

[J]innG`[Y]i LurBe [X]ia0`[T]iaN